You know- uno.

Being honest

At this point in my life, I wish I hadn’t met you. This is the worst break-up/get-back-together relationship I’ve ever been in, and we aren’t dating. Actually, I’m dating your ex, even though it was months and months after you broke up and I didn’t even know you then. Maybe that’s why we can’t work? Maybe the ex-gf/new-gf tension is there, but neither of us realizes it? All I know is I just can’t do it anymore. I want to be your friend, I really do, but when I actually try to talk to you or make plans with you, you never get back to mE. I don’t know what I was expecting- just some support, I guess. I really need a real friend right now. It’s hard because I was so close to you- closer than I’d been with anyone. Now, I pretty much hate you.

What I have to learn from all this is that shit happens- the same lesson I take out of every life situation. What I am going to do about it is move on, same as always.

I mean it this time. I am moving the fuck on. Fuck you, dangling the string of company above my little kitty head, just out of reach of my tired paws. This is it, amiga.

Hmm.

Why is it that I always push everyone away and then get lonely and feel sorry for myself?

Just throwing this out there…

I’m gonna do everything within my power to avoid getting this sick next year at this time.

You can quote mE on this one.

boredombullshit

It’s approximately 4 AM right now, and, yes, I am wide awake. After spending the majority of my day laying around doing nothing and then taking a 2 1/2 hour nap late afternoon, you can see why sleep is lacking right now.

And what am I doing with this dark, quiet, still time I’m getting to myself right now?

I’m reading how to rap battle on wikihow.

hahaha

Seriously, I am! I’ve been so bored recently, it’s been easy to reach this decision to “broaden my horizons”, so to speak. With wikihow as my guide, I am going to shake things up!

First step in transforming my person is setting my goals…

which is why I’m “blogging”.

Can anyone say mental note? Yes?

Stipulations for the Perfect Shades

Before 10th grade, I had not worn sunglasses since childhood. I distinctly remember when I stopped wearing them. I had been at the playground with my brother, wearing my favorite, badass silver shades with colored,reflective lenses. I took them off to examine something in one of the crawl tunnels, forgetting them there and leaving them forever. I never thought I could replace them, so I never tried and completely abandoned the idea of shaded eyes.

In tenth grade, though, a miracle happened called “I Got a Pair of Perfect Sunglasses”. I was preparing for summer trips, picking up last minute things, and just happened to look at sunglasses at J.C.Penny’s. I fell in love with this black pair, just slightly bigger than most of the others on the rack. From that moment on, I have been striving for bigger and better ones. The bigger, the better!And I own about 14 pairs.

Here are the things I look for in a pair of sunglasses:

• Oversize- that’s what the super huge ones are called, obviously. Makes sense.
• Dark lens- I don’t go for shades that you can see my eyes. The darker the tint, the more likely I am to buy.
• Obscure design- mostly in the arms, but the design of the frame catches my eye too. I try to go for the most unique- within reason, of course.
• Price- although I love expensive things as much as the next person, the key to sunglasses is how cheap they are. The cheaper ones are usually the ones with all the qualities I’m looking for (see above). But now that I am employed, we’ll see how true this holds to be!

All that being said, I am currently scouring the ebay market, searching for perfect shades. Wish mE luck, haha.